7:08 p.m. - 2007-06-13
A loan
I feel like I've been borrowing something that I can never pay back. Leveraging any future success to keep myself emotionally stunted. Eternally looking outside of myself for answers that only I can answer. Why do I feel like I'm the only person that thinks the way I do? Am I? Shouldn't I be? I mean if everyone thought like me they would be hopeless, self-loathing and eternally stuck. And that wouldn't be good. Where would all the new avant-garde porn come from? The fetish ones. The stuff that nobody ever even thought of being aroused by until someone had the temerity, or depravity, to pay a drug addled runaway to make.
It's not funny, or even remotely true.
So stop it!
