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6:35 a.m. - 2007-07-28 Being nocturnal has always felt right, at first. Then I slowly realize that it is just one more attempt to insulate me from people. By the time a few months has passed with this schedule it seems a Herculean task to get back to sleeping nights. I've done it, and will again, but at the time it is the most depressingly exhilirating feeling in the world to me. A chance to live alone with only myself to worry about. But then, I have to turn that coin and realize that there's nobody else who cares about me. That's unacceptable and I don't want to live that way any longer. I will endeavour to change these unwanted things and to accept the good for what it is and also the bad for what it is, the balance that makes the enjoyable truly enjoyable.
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